God gets you back

I used to make fun of my mom and sister for being such saps when watching a movie, it didn't have to be sad, as long as it had a glimpse of sadness or something worth shedding a tear. My mom was on it... She would get so emotional. I distinctly remember my mom and sister crying during that movie "I am Sam". Don't get me wrong, it was a touching movie, BUT I felt no reason to cry, no knot in this throat of mine. But I glanced at my sister and mom, with tears rolling down their faces, I giggled. They were crying over a movie.
BUT NOW.
NOW.
I will cry if there is anyting remotely tender, upsetting, touching. With the knot in the throat, trying not to cry, the tears just start coming. Then, on the Today Show this morning, they were doing their Martha Stuart wedding, I cried. I don't even know these people, I WAS CRYING. They were promising each other their eternal love and commitment, it was beautiful and endeering, a happy cry. Then, I watched Private Practice, balled like a little bitty baby, BUT there was a reason for this one, two mothers had their baby "purposely" switched in the hospital by one of the fathers because his baby was sick, and by California state law, they had to switch, after NINE months caring for their babies, they had to give them up to the other mommy, ohhh nelly, was I sobbing like my kitty cat had been run over by a bus.

When I was pregnant, I was watching an episode of Deal or No Deal, and there was this guy of oriental decent. He had told his little story earlier about his parents immigrating to the United States and all they had was 750 dollars. Through the game Howie did his thing, and kept reminding us of his parents, and as you get to the last 4 cases, this guy has 750,000, 75, and another number on the board. He then says no deal, and that other number was taken out. So he is stuck with these number, such symbolism. He goes all the way to just the last two cases. The banker offers him a deal, and he takes it. They show at the end how much was in his case. Guess.....
$750
Tell me God didn't have a hand in this!?
So I cried. And Sterling til this day reminds me of the vulnerablity of being pregnant. Which, has not left. I now cry often at shows and silly things, but I am learning to embrace this softer side, because Mason was the outcome.

Being a parent, life changes

Well today is Oct 3. We are getting married in 44 days. Soooo excited.
We kind of did everything backwards, but wouldn't change it for the world. We moved in together almost 3 years ago, then just recently had our amazing son, Mason. He is 6 months and makes us laugh when we don't feel like it, when he is not with us, we talk about him, and smile. The most amazing thing you could do with your life is be a parent. Your child teaches you the simplest of things such as, trust, forgiveness, first and formost, patience.
I just saw on the Today show this morning this guym who had a vesictiomy (sp?) at 28 years old, he never wanted children. He said it wasn't that he did like kids, he just didn't want any of his own, he didn't want that responsibily. I don't care who you are, that is probably the most selfish thing a man can do... Let me tell you this, he is going to miss out on a lot of amazing women purely because most womens dreams are to have children in their lifetime. How could you go through life without them? You would be so alone.
We are young, but this has always been what I wanted, if not now I would have tried for a baby, within the next year or two. I want to be able to play with my grandchildren, without being scared of hurting myself.

with all this said. Being a parent is the most amazing thing in the world. Brittie your going to love it!