Its been awhile, again, since I have posted and I am not really sure where I want to start. I'm sitting outside of my cafeteria at work and the wind is blowing like its trying to get away from something, and the air smells of moisture and dirt, aka arizona rain.
First thing I can really think of to update is that Mason is fully potty trained now! It took about two weeks in undies and a couple accidents. He also is known as the streaker at the gym day care. In the middle of the "trial" period, he requested to go to the bathroom... Went potty.... Then ran out of the bathroom.. Completely bottomless yelling "candy candy candy" (at the time we would give him a fruit snack as a treat for going potty)
Secondly- my moms house is complete and she has moved in. Its bitter sweet to have her not part of our everyday. We certainly do miss her extra hand, and car ;) oh and mostly her company.
Everyday I tell myself to go home to read a chapter of new moon again but I'm pretty involved with this book called "my sisters keeper". If it sounds familiar, it has been made into a movie, and comes out in a couple weeks.
I'm typing on my phone now since I took the job doing data entry. Leaving a computer is truly leaving work. If I touch the computer at home, its most likely to put or remove songs on my mp3 player, for work, so I don't lose my mind doing the mundane. I have had a breakdown about the current situation, but am starting to grasp my bearings. I really do feel like I am missing out on benji's baby time. He is already 5 months old! I can't even fathom where the time went. It is the middle of june people!
I have started really contecting with aquiantence, and really enjoy he thoughts and outlook. I have never really had a friend (other than family) that has been really true. Maybe once, but I feel like this friendship has a more fulfilling quality to it.I was an air force brat and so I don't really know what its like to have that friend you have known all your life. But I definitely like my new and current ones!
I am also really starting to discover my deep true feelings about trust and love and friendship. Long story short, I am not fond of my sisters choice of boy. She says she is in love and he is the one and yada yada. My marriage started from highschool. We started dating junior year. Difference between my sister and myself is that I have had my heart shattered before. During the healing process from that break up, I really found out what kind of person I wanted to be. I dibble and dabbled in other "lifestyles" and found where I was most comfortable and adequit for my goals. Before I started dating sterling, I was newly confident in myself and my life. I new where I wanted to be and what I was looking for. I let love find me. And boy am I lucky! My sister needs that she needs to love herself before she can truly love and be loved by someone else.
On another note, my stepmom has completed all of her treatments and does not have to see her oncologists for another 3 months. We hope this devil will stay clear of her body. With the drama unfolding with my sister, I feel like her and I have bonded on some levels. I never really understood some of the things that she would say or do. but now I feel like I have opened a new chapter and friendship with her that I may have otherwise dismissed because of misuderstandings. I truly thank God for that.
I have been working really hard to take my baby weight off and am finally starting to see and feel results! Hallelujah! I have also been taking a yoga class thursday nights for the past 3 weeks and I feel like it helping me stay on the right track, its amazing how can work up a sweat without cardio.
My friday today, started off with a bang... I forgot my lunch and my mp3 player (yes, still plugged into the computer from the night before) and when I get to work I realize that I have the jeep keys, which go to our only vehicle, and sterling couldn't get to work. I also have this ritual called coffee friday, and mcds was only accepting cash (how lame) - I then go to the "starbucks" at my work cafeteria and order a coffee there (4 dollars please) and it was the most vial thing ever consumed. So its 0 for 2 at the "starbucks" and I have now come to conclusion that its just the name on the menu and not the actual product. Out 4 dollars.
Tonight the hubster and I are going on a date for fathers day, and I know that special time spent with him will make any poop filled day-not as poopy :)
Have a good one and remember to tell you fathesr thank you for killing you when you were teenage girls with hormones raging and making stupid decisions.
K.thx.bye
