God gets you back

I used to make fun of my mom and sister for being such saps when watching a movie, it didn't have to be sad, as long as it had a glimpse of sadness or something worth shedding a tear. My mom was on it... She would get so emotional. I distinctly remember my mom and sister crying during that movie "I am Sam". Don't get me wrong, it was a touching movie, BUT I felt no reason to cry, no knot in this throat of mine. But I glanced at my sister and mom, with tears rolling down their faces, I giggled. They were crying over a movie.
BUT NOW.
NOW.
I will cry if there is anyting remotely tender, upsetting, touching. With the knot in the throat, trying not to cry, the tears just start coming. Then, on the Today Show this morning, they were doing their Martha Stuart wedding, I cried. I don't even know these people, I WAS CRYING. They were promising each other their eternal love and commitment, it was beautiful and endeering, a happy cry. Then, I watched Private Practice, balled like a little bitty baby, BUT there was a reason for this one, two mothers had their baby "purposely" switched in the hospital by one of the fathers because his baby was sick, and by California state law, they had to switch, after NINE months caring for their babies, they had to give them up to the other mommy, ohhh nelly, was I sobbing like my kitty cat had been run over by a bus.

When I was pregnant, I was watching an episode of Deal or No Deal, and there was this guy of oriental decent. He had told his little story earlier about his parents immigrating to the United States and all they had was 750 dollars. Through the game Howie did his thing, and kept reminding us of his parents, and as you get to the last 4 cases, this guy has 750,000, 75, and another number on the board. He then says no deal, and that other number was taken out. So he is stuck with these number, such symbolism. He goes all the way to just the last two cases. The banker offers him a deal, and he takes it. They show at the end how much was in his case. Guess.....
$750
Tell me God didn't have a hand in this!?
So I cried. And Sterling til this day reminds me of the vulnerablity of being pregnant. Which, has not left. I now cry often at shows and silly things, but I am learning to embrace this softer side, because Mason was the outcome.