Politically Purple

 

A while back I took a little survey online that rated what party I belonged to based on my beliefs and stance on hot topics. I landed dead smack in the middle, and they labeled me "Conservative Liberal". It is almost an oxy moron. Truth is, that is very me. I watch FOX news AND CNN. My stance on Gay Marriage is very liberal and ILLEGAL immigration is extremely conservative. I am not the judge, God (or whoever you believe in) has the gavel. I will not enforce my views on someone else in the political realm. When it comes to law, I will speak about the crimes committed as stated in the book. Last time I checked:

il·le·gal 1.forbidden by law or statute. 

If you know anything about me, I am far from judgemental, as long as you are a good person, and strive to do good for others. If you are a productive citizen in society, I had no issue with you.  The person is who is living here illegally may be a wonderful, kind hearted person, and again, I have no issues with you as a person, its the broken law that is the problem. I am in no means perfect, but I respect authority, and I am thankful for them attempting to keep our community safe. Like a bumper sticker I saw says "Thank a Cop" and you should. America is the land of the free and home of the brave, not home of the handouts. You work hard like our founding fathers, and you will reap the benefits.

I thought about adding statistics to this post but don't want to spend the entire post talking about these. So click on the following link if you interested. They are astounding. SB 1070 is ironically just an enforcement bill... it states what is already law and PROHIBITS racial profiling, it is ILLEGAL for them to pull you over because of the color of you skin. period. Your Drivers License shows that your a citizen. Don't break the law and you have nothing to worry about.

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/bloggers/1738432/posts

 

There are two shows that have come out this springs, and I love them!!

Parenthood on NBC is great. They mix honest to goodness real life situations with some comedy. It follows 4 siblings and they journeys through parenting. All 4 have completely different situations and treat each parenting road block differently. Being a parent sometimes can be a catch-22 and will make you a hypocrite at times, and in these times you have to be tough on your stance, and they show the trails that they go through during these episodes. Next show is Modern Family on ABC, PURE comedy, I don't even know how to explain the shows premise, but they are s dysfunctional family, making fun of different family issues. Classic.  I  definitely recommended these two shows, because you will find that you can relate, and in turn laugh at yourself.  

Dental date from hell. Oh my, this is what I get for not seeing the dentist in over 7 years! I had a four o clock appointment to get 3 fillings and a cleaning. Little did I know, that 3 hours later, my entire right side of my face would be entirely numb, including my eye lid! It was by no means comfortable and I can barely chew this morning. Round 2 is next Wednesday and I am NOT looking forward to it. Maybe next time I will tell them that I need to sit up after they give me the numbing meds so it doesn't run down my face internally and number me entirely again! No fun. 

 

We will soon be firing the workers in the baby factory.  Sterling met with the family doctor yesterday, and got the ok and referral to the doc to get a vasectomy. Directly after Benjamin, we had a rough go around and said we would wait until Mason was in school to try for a girl. The more and more we thought about it, we feel like having a third child is just not for us. I want my boys to have the most fulfilling childhood they can. Shooting 50/50 for a girl and having another boy are just not worth us attempting to have another. So... he is making his appointment, and I am excited to turn the page.

 

This week has been pretty hectic and I have been doing half hour lunches at work. This sucks because I have been working out on my breaks and 30 minutes and just not enough time. Today, I finally got to run on my lunch and it was glorious. Its so strange how I feel like my body is changing, but feel bad about it. Body image is such a funny thing, you either good or miserable. I am hovering around 10 lbs more than my comfort weight. My clothes are fitting different and they aren't tight, and they aren't loose, just different. Very strange. But FYI, after my run, Today is a good day! :)

 

Last but not least, moving, or time at my moms is rounding 3rd base and were are needing to find home. Its so tough when you have a budget that you are setting yourself up so you can continue to save money and live comfortably. Most places that I am interested in are in our price range but we would be saving less than I'd like, but on the other hand the ones that fit my ideal savings plan are not in an okay place to raise my kids. Tough, but we will find one. Takin time. 

 

Thanks for reading! Until next time, have a great day! 

Salt and Pepper

Oh the times. <br>

I am finally taking a second to clear my head of the ramblings that are my thoughts. <br>

I currently have myself on a "training" regiment for running. About three weeks ago. I finally ran a mile without stopping or slowing. It may seem insignificant to the average runner, but this is a big deal! I can honestly say that I had never done that in my entire life, even as a kid, running just was not my thing. I have flat feet, so just the thought of running made my feet throb. I bought a pair of tennies made specifically to help support my non arched feet, and off I went. There is still a little discomfort, but miles better than before. I'm currently at 2 miles steady and will up the anty once that because easier. It has become such a great work out for me, so satisfying knowing that I am doing things with my body I never imagined would be possible. <br>

Chelsey is due next month. The doctor told her to be on alert because little miss might just come early. Of course, being my sister, I hope the best, and will kidnap the little lady often. <Br>

We are nearing the end of our stay with my mom, and I'm sure it will be bitter sweet. She is such a huge help and the boys, especially Benjamin, are so attached to her. We have accomplish most of our financial goals in this time period, and are so grateful that we have had this opportunity. It came to us as a devastating blow, and to move back into a parents home, is pretty tough when you are as independent and prideful as Sterling and I are. We couldn't even begin to show the gratitude deserved. All of our parents have helped us out in more ways then one, financially and physically, we will find a way to repay all of you, in due time. Now we are starting our hunt for a home that we can call ours. With Sterling's self employment, we are unable to receive a loan only on my income. But we are looking for a rent to own or lease option, so we can have a "permanent" residence and stop the vicious cycle of moving.<br>

The work environment has exceed expectations. We got a new supervisor, and he is completely opposite of the previous. He seems to get us as a team, and does a really good job understanding personal issues that any individual has. His whole demeanor is friendly and not hierarchy. This obviously makes it easier to handle when the days are long and irritating. <br>

Sterling started a business for his home wiring business, Totally Wired LLC. This is a huge thing for him, especially in the slow season of work at Mediacom. If you, anyone you know, need any cable, internet, phone wiring done or relocated let us know! He's your man! <br>

Mason is so excited for summer, I can't get him to wait! He keeps asking when we can go swimming... and I am waiting until a couple 100 degree days, so the pool is not ice cold. Oh the joys of being a kid, and not caring about the temperature of the water.  He has also started a nightly prayer, and is so cute when he repeats it. It just makes me all giggly inside. <br>

There are so many things to come. Its only looking up from here.

 

 

fly balls and home runs

I'm going to get the negative out first, always feels better when I end on a high note.

On the job front, I'm still pulling out my hair, and desperately trying to get into a position where I can at least tolerate the mundane. I thought I had a great opportunity in a branch, but after my interview yesterday, that went down the drain. Interviewer said that I was obviously qualified for the coaching aspect, and obviously a great employee, but I did not have enough managerial experience with goal based operations. Yea, Yea. Its getting very disheartening when you know you have what it takes to step it up and others just look at the black and white.

Caught fly balls seem to be the theme for us at the moment. We got Sterling a work truck, spent an ungodly amount of money on it, and it took a crap on us. So we had to end up doing something we DID NOT have planned. At all.

My political side is getting larger and larger with what is going on in the government. My motto has always been, if you don't like what is going on in America... Take a hike. I'm starting to see the other side. Please tell me why those who were on unemployment, received unemployment benefits while unemployed, receive a 3500 dollar tax break? Tell me how this sounds right. Didn't we, the people, help them out WHILE they were unemployed? Why should they receive more? Its a sore subject because WE both lost our jobs, and I fought tooth and nail for where I am, I may complain, but I am thankful for the income. Sterling on the other hand, has bounced from job to job, to support his family, unable to receive benefits because he jumped at every job that was brought to him, even if it was not enough. I certainly, certainly, do not mind paying taxes, but I do get angry when they want to pull our Officers and Fighters when they should be the LAST to go, and stop painting mosaics on our freeways, no one cares about those, the mosaics do not keep our cities safe.

And the health care debate... Oh, the debate. Let me tell you from a non insured pregnant woman at time in need. This system DOES need to be looked at. I was unmarried, and pregnant with my first child, making 12/hr. According to the Government, I made TOO much to get help. I am now STILL stuck with $12000+ in medical bills, while other who took advantage of the system sit at home with their children and play with them. They need to audit the current peoples using it and then set the standards for those who actually NEED it, instead of RELYing on it.

Now the stresses of trying to find a decent roof for our boys, without sacrificing their safety. Talk about disheartening. We are even considering a 1 bedroom and were rejected at one apartments that would have been PERFECT. But they have a 3 to 1 policy. So they offered their 1 bedroom with a den, and of course its out of our "budget".

Breathe........"If he brings you to it, he will guide you through it"

Benjamin is one!

Mason is turning 3!!! what what???!!

I cant even believe the time.
We are talking about signing Mason up for soccer. He keeps asking, and I know he would love to play with some "friends". :)

There is a difference between complaining, and getting stuff off your chest.

With all those negatives above, there has been a lot of patting on the backs, and "we will get through this" talks. I thank God everyday for providing the backbone that is my husband, I can even begin to express how helpful and loving he is. He has a huge heart. I'm not one to boast about my love, but man, sometimes your just can't help but praise the one that is fighting right along side you. When I have the moments of pity me, he grabs my hand and walks through the rain with me. I know that when he repeated "In sickness and in health." This meant financially and physically. In these times of recognizing him, It makes it easier to excuse the smelly work clothes on the floor and the open cereal box from the morning before.

Since I have found a good new pair of shoes, I have regained my ambition to run. I have even sacrificed my lunch break, to take a run. I would love to take run outside, but again, run into wanting to hang out with my boys... and boys always win. Hands down. Ill deal with the treadmill, until I can get time to run, without interrupting my boy time.
We can groan, we can grumble, but you pick yourself back up, dust off your clothes, and get back in the fight. Those who are taking the easy road today, will see your hard work pay off later, and you'll be the one ahead.

2009 love letter

this is my love letter to the year 2009
First and foremost...Thank you for being apart of my Benjamin's life. We will always look back to you, and remember his birth in the beginning of our journey.
You have brought me closer to some, and some I couldn't have imagined our friendship to grow as much as it has, with this said, I have also let go of some that I had trouble doing before. You gave me time to do this, and it was a healing process. This is in no way negative, only a way to move on.
You gave our family so tough times, but in these tough times, we have only grown closer and wiser. The things we have learned will be forever with us. 2009 has shaped us even more than we may realize, through trials and tribulations, we may have fallen physically, but have only risen mentally.

To be continued....

poop picasso

I WALK  INTO THE KIDS CLUB
ME "I'M LOOKING FOR MASON LLOYD"
LADY - LOOKING AROUND.... THEN TURNS TO ME "OH HE'S IN THE
BATHROOM... I JUST CHECKED ON HIM A SECOND AGO... I THINK HE IS GOING POOP"....
ME - WALK INTO THE BATHROOM, SEE MASON, PANTS DOWN POOP ON BUTT, THROWING AWAY TOILET TISSUE "OH MY GOSH, WHAT HAPPENED?"
MASON "I DON'T KNOW, I WENT POOP MOMMY"
ME "WHY IS THERE POOP SMEARED ALL OVER THE TOILET BOWL?"I LEAD HIM TO THE SINK TO WASH HIS HANDS...
MASON "MOMMY THE KIDS DID IT."
ME - WHILE ATTEMPTING TO CLEAR UP THE, MIND YOU, DRY POOP ON THE TOILET "WHAT KIDS DID IT?"
MASON - "THE GIRL DID IT"
ME - "WHAT GIRL, DO YOU MEAN THE LADY?"
MASON- "NO MOMMY, THE LITTLE GIRL"
ME - "WHAT LITTLE GIRL?"
MASON - "THE LITTLE GIRL."
HMMMMM... KIND OF CONFUSED BECAUSE THE POOP ON HIS BUTT WAS PRETTY DRY. HE HAD TO OF BEEN IN THERE FOR SOME TIME... AND WHY DIDNT HE HAVE POOP ALL OVER HIS HANDS WITH THE PAINTED ON POOP?
P.S. MASON IS NOT A FAN OF GETTING HIS HANDS DIRTY.
SOMETHINGS FISHY, ESPECIALLY SINCE THE LADY SAID SHE JUST CHECKED ON HIM. NO WAY DID SHE OVER LOOK THIS PICASSO OF POOP.

Wednesday the 9th

Family first - ALWAYS
I cannot stress this enough.

Pride sometimes needs to take a backseat - actually most of the time.

judge - This is am not.

sheltered and defended - how much is too much to not allow you to grow?

Some people think that the unknown is scary, but the unknown has 9 times out of ten, already played out in someone else's life. But that mentality of "I'm different" sometimes causes pain.

Responsibility is sometimes overlooked

Kids being kids, shouldn't have to be aware of worldly and adult issues. Puts too much stress on them, more than some may realize.

The Lovely Bones
- leaving your children
- never know how I would react, pray that I never ever have to.
- I could say how I would want to react
- very graphic literature, stomach turning to me.
- wanted worse for Mr. Harvey, But very symbolic.

Tiger Woods story reiterates the "don't judge a book by its cover" saying. Double lives from the public eye.
- We only know what is being to in the public.
- Don't get married if you know your going to purposefully put yourself in a situation where you will be tempted.

Book Club - who would join? and actually participate??
- quite a few friends who seem to have similar taste in reads.

Diary and Journal keepers
- everything jumbled and a mess in thoughts
- very visual and verbal person - not textual
- envy those who can translate thoughts into words

5 people fired at work in the last week.

Cherish those who are there instead of dwelling on those who are absent.

We are the way we are for a reason- most likely for an abundant of reasons

Would love you bump into those who have disappeared from my life, most of then seemingly intentional and ask why? Do I smother and overwhelm to make it unbearable to be around?

***Buble in concert April 8th!! Tickets on sale Friday!!! ooooooweee...

Ashes New Moon Review

Let me start off by saying this- New Moon was my least favorite book. With this said, I have to state why I was excited for the movie. The new directors background seemed to fit PERFECT for what this series needed. Chris Weitz lived up to my expectation (could have done with out the swirly twirly shots, makes me feel car sick). But He was a amazing addition to the franchise.

and don't worry- No spoilers here

First off- The movie was 10 trillion times better than twilight. I'm glad the actors are starting to age with the movie, and growing into the characters. Sorry friends, I have to state that I still, sadly enough, think they could have casted Bella better. Kristen Stewart just doesn't do it for me. I have to admit that he awkwardness is perfect for Bells, but the hair swiping and lip licking just is... is. Taylor did great, and is probably one of the best actors in the movie so far. You just feel his emotion and need to have Bella want him. ***note*** I feel all heeby geeby inside with I see his hard body... 17... I think I need to shower.... maybe if he was a few years older, I would feel so dirty. Rob, the way his voice is so lyrical, as the book describes, just makes you want to swoon.... and so will the last uttered words of the movie.

Second- This was my least favorite because of Bella's heartbreak and how long Stephanie took to portray it. I have been through devastation like this when I was all of 15. But when your young and you are infatuated with one person, its heartbreaking. That following summer, I tried to engulf myself in this one particular person, and ending up finding peace in talk shows and sugar free popsicles. For me life is too short to waste your time. You have to find peace in yourself before you can move forward with someone else. They DON'T complete you. You need to be complete all on your own. With my counseling session out of the way, and Eclipse on the brink, I will continue my struggle with Bella's wallowing, especially when it takes a whole book for her to get over the age issue. Edward is the real reason the keeps my passion for this series. Unconditional, non-sexual (strength for waiting), adoration he has for her.

Third- It was by the book, and to the T. This is how all movie based on books should be. They take the story and bring it to the screen. It was done beautifully. You will hear critics say things like: "the wolf packs shirts are ALWAYS missing" "Edward is awkward and those abs aren't real" "the movie was slow" "The movie desperately misses Catherine Hardwick" {impossible to me} "they attacked her over a paper cut and not from the gush of blood in twilight" etc... all of these are most likely from non readers... if not I apologize for categorizing you. And If you didn't read the book and liked it, I'd like to hear your thoughts, because once you have their future in their mind, there is no non bias. Melissa Rosenburg did a very good job making Jacob likable {and the no shirt did hurt either} because I loathed his teenage boy antics in the book.

If you have anything to add, I would LOVE to hear it! We can discuss!